Thursday, August 18, 2005 @ 10:42 PM
My Moooooood now is extremely extremely..
EXTREMELY bad...
feeeelin so down and yet helpless..
wanted to be perfect..
and yet..ironically speakin..
i'll never ever be dat perfect..
NEver will i be one..
why why why why why?
so much whys in my mind and yet i cant find a single answer out..
HA! useless huhs?!
lyin to myself ..
someday my prince will come..
but frankly speakin!
will there ever be dat time?
is there really HAPPILY EVER AFTER in this world?
I'm always livin in my own FAIRY TALE..
thinkin.. one day there'll be HAPPILY EVER After with my prince..
yet.. i cant see any..
and refuse to wake up..
dat's me!
well.. enough of all those!
jus a good new which end up become a bad one..
i found a job..
which gonna starts work tml..
at Panasonic..
should be glad..
and they pay me more than enough..
and up to his criteria..
and yet..
i'm being named as "materialistic"..
"money-faced"...
jus becus of my 1.5K which i'm unwilling to let go..
money in deed can make the whole world evil..
doesn't it?
ppl work for the sake of money..
who doesn't?
most importantly..
it can satisfy my thirst..
my demand..
esp. when i'm feeelin extremely down!
it allows me to feeeeeeeeel better!
at least.. .. yea..
at least...
maybe.. i should be dat materialistic?
anybody has lobang for sugar daddy?!
**
perhaps...
sighh...
love me for who i am...
this is all i want..
but it seems so hard...
rite?
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